Hi everyone! This is the three year update to my sex reassignment surgery. On March 4th, 2013, I had my SRS with Christine McGinn. If you would like to know about my surgery and/or the first year or two of recovery, I’ll have annotations and links to all these videos in the description. [SRS | 1 Year Post-op | 2 Years Post-op] Being at the three year mark I should be on here saying that everything is all good and there are no problems. Unfortunately, once again, I cannot say this. The issues I discussed in my two year update video are still present. But, I have been trying to do things about it, but nothing is working. So, in the two year update video I did in 2015 I mentioned that I was going to go to a local gynecologist to see if there was anything that could be done. Shortly after posting that video, in late March of 2015, I did go to a gynecologist. I was the first trans patent they had and they didn’t really know much about that type of surgery. But, I expressed my concerns and said that the primary issue for me was granulation tissue inside the vagina. This is something that is not trans specific as women deal with vaginal tears, especially during childbirth and sex, so I knew they could help me. I told the doctor that my surgeon’s office generally used silver nitrate to treat the area. So, the gynecologist did as well. She treated the area and I was hoping this would help. While it was sensitive for a few days afterwards, it seemed to have helped. But, as it usually does, the pain started coming back and it was right back to where it was before.
After about a month and a half from my previous visit at the gynecologist, at the beginning of May I scheduled another visit. She treated it again and suggested that I return to my surgeon’s office if it persisted since she didn’t really feel comfortable continuing with me, so that was the last time I saw her. After the treatment, the same thing happened. I started to feel better and I was hoping it was all good, then the pain came back. So, about a month and a half after that, in early July is when I went into the surgeon’s office. I didn’t see the surgeon, but I saw an assistant and she did a very thorough job of using the silver nitrate to get all the granulation tissue. It was rather painful, but it felt great that everything was being treated. She even treated the spot that had a bit of an opening around the clitoral hood which never fully closed after a revision surgery back in late 2013. I also asked her about the other problem I was having regarding getting aroused and feeling a lot of uncomfortable swelling. Well, she said that this was quite common for those that were thin when having the surgery and there is nothing they can safely do to remedy the situation. She even prescribed me some Estrace vaginal cream to help heal the granulation tissue inside the vagina. I was feeling great after the visit, thinking everything was going to heal properly and I would be pain free. Well guess what happened after about a week? It all came back. All the pain and discomfort, the healing problems. I just was so disappointed. Everything is exactly like it was last year before everything I just told you. Everything is worse than it was during like the first year. There is so much pain and discomfort when dilating. So much that I don’t even bother with it like I use to. I don’t know if I should even continue with it since it’s just not worth all the problems. I just can’t deal with it anymore and all the treatments are just making it worse. I don’t know what to do and I’ve just had enough.
Moving onto a different note, a non-dilation topic, regarding the sexual aspects of it. I’ve never had sex so I cannot talk about that, and I have tried a vibrating dildo and that is…no thank you. I probably would be fine with just a small vibrator, but anything that goes inside is not all that great. Occasionally it’ll be alright, if it’s not too big or deep, but I don’t really care for it. And the other thing is that it’s weird to feel numb spots around the clitoris, which is the most sensitive spot. Those areas that there is little to no feeling are very awkward. But, regarding the actual orgasm, that certainly varies quite a bit. There will be times that it’s not all that, and others where I’m just lost in a daze for hours afterwards. I’ve definitely been able to utilize the sexual energy in more spiritual ways as well, whereas with a penis I couldn’t. And, while it may take like a half hour or so to really get into it and stay focused, since it is very relaxing that I have certainly fallen asleep in just the first few minutes of starting to masturbate, it is something I enjoy, but I feel there could be more. What I mean is, I feel like as a female I’m just kinda laying there and there really isn’t activity or moving. Whereas with a penis, there was so much more activity. I don’t want a penis, but I think at certain times, in a sexual situation, I would love to be able to switch from vagina to penis and back. And while that’s just hopeful thinking and it’s not possible to do that, it certainly is a fascinating thought and something I wish was a thing I could physically do. So, there is certainly advantages and disadvantages of both from my perspective. But, it is what it is. I have no regrets and I love my body and the confidence I have with it now.
So in conclusion, things haven’t changed at all since the two year mark. I’m still having problems and my body refused to heal properly. I don’t know where to even go next since I am done with the treatments, I don’t want another surgery, I don’t want the pain when dilating. So, I really don’t know what the best option is for me at this point. If something comes along and is done about this or I finally heal, then I’ll make an update. But until then, thank you for listening to the problems I’ve been having. Like always, don’t let my negative experience deter you from getting the surgery if you really want to. There will be negative, but there are plenty of positives. I’m thankful for the positive this has brought me. So, thank you for watching!
At the three year mark I really wanted to say that everything was healed. But unfortunately, I simply couldn’t say that due to the amount of issues. The person I saw at my surgeon’s office claimed the problem was how my body was healing. But, why is it not healing properly?
Something I neglected to mention in this video was hair inside the vagina. There is still hair inside, but it’s very little. I can count maybe four or five different hairs that occasionally come up that I pluck out of there. They don’t really cause any problems.
Unrelated to the content of this video, after positing it I experienced something I never had before with a brand new video. About two hours after posting, there was a huge influx of negativity projected towards me, primarily saying that I was a male and will never be a female, including death threats. Someone must have shared it somewhere, yet I fail to understand why this video would be shared versus other ones I’ve done. Regardless, they can say what they please about me, but when some started to provoke and say hateful things, including death threats, to friends and people projecting positivity, then that’s where I draw the line. So, I disabled comments for a few hours until this settled down. This was the first ever time I disabled comments on a public video. Goodness people, why must you have so much hatred inside your heart that you must project this onto others that have done nothing to you?