Hi everyone, I thought I’d answer some more of your questions and read back weird messages. Be sure to check the description to go to specific questions if needed.
Q: If you could travel to only one country only where would it be!
A: I would probably pick Japan as I’ve always been a fan of Japanese things.
Q: Would you ever consider befriending someone who watches your videos?
A: Absolutely. All the people I consider friends are people who’ve contacted me from watching my videos. I find it easier as I do not have to explain myself as much as I would with someone who doesn’t know me at all. There is already an understanding there.
Q: At what age did you as autumn know you liked girls or have you always liked girls even before the transition
A: Yes, I’ve always been attracted to females, even before transitioning. There wasn’t a moment where I wasn’t. However, there certainly were times where I was a bit interested in males, but never from a relationship perspective. But for relationships, I prefer females.
Q: I wanted to know if you’re open in dating? If so, what sort of women do you tend to be attracted to?
Q: if you were going to be in a relationship with somebody, would it be with somebody very similar to yourself or somebody completely different?
A: Well, I know from a bit of experience, yes, I do have some experience now, that the kind of person I am attracted to is someone I can connect with on a variety of levels. We certainly would have many similar interests, as that is what would spark my interest in them in the first place and it would be a lot to discuss. But also, not so much alike to the point of our relationship becoming redundant. So, it’s mostly someone similar, in that we share many meaningful interests, but different enough to have even more things to talk about.
Q: Tapes or cd
A: Neither. All my music is digital these days. Digital is certainly the best format since, well if you were to have access to the highest quality studio masters then you have the song as it was intended. Which you often cannot purchase in this format since what you get is often some crappy quality, compressed, low bit rate, bit depth, and sample rate garbage that is limited and distorted beyond belief. Well, any medium can be like that. CDs being one of those, but at least the quality is closer to what is should be.
As for the actual question since I got sidetracked, I use to love cassette tapes since I would record on them all the time when I was younger. That was a fun medium to record on since you can manipulate the tape when recording and playing back. As for CDs, I actually own quite a bit of CDs. They are primarily anime and game soundtracks that I have extracted to my computer. Some of which are quite rare. Maybe I’ll show you all at some point.
Q: How long did it take for your hair to grow as long as it is now?
A: It’s been years since I had it cut. Probably like four years. I do trim it occasionally at the ends. And, just look how long it is.
Q: What are some of your favorite fruits?
A: Everything. I eat a banana and an apple daily. I love kiwi, grapes, strawberries, pineapple. All of it.
Q: Organic milk or soy milk which is your fav.
A: I’ve changed milk so many times. Many years ago I would drink whole cow’s milk. Then I went to 1% and then fat free cow’s milk. Then I went dairy free for some time and was drinking soy milk. Then I went back to fat free cow’s milk. Then I went to almond milk for a bit. Then, when I started doing all the grocery shopping for myself, I went for 1% organic cow’s milk that is from a local farm. I’ve tried coconut milk as well. But, the reason why I am sticking with organic cow’s milk is because most of the alternative milks have added synthetic vitamins, like vitamin D. I prefer to not consume that and instead have natural vitamin D in the milk, or at the very least, the non-synthetic variety of vitamins.
Q: would you ever consider being vegan?
A: Not really. I enjoy my dairy products and unlike what some of these vegans that go around saying how bad animal products are for you, dairy is not bad for you. As long as you are getting organic, it’s pretty healthy and can provide your body with essential vitamins and minerals. And while it is fattening, it’s not that bad. Besides, non-dairy cheeses can be quite fattening as well.
Q: Could you compare yourselves to ‘Roger’ (especially his ‘wigs/personae’) from “American Dad”?
A: I love Roger from American Dad. But, I can’t say I compare myself to him since I don’t really do what he does, but he’s certainly still interesting.
Q: How long does it take you to change your perception about something? For example your views on your mental issues/relationships/your views on anything in general
A: It depends on the issue. Sometimes all that is needed is a moment of clarity. Relaxing your mind and body and focusing on the situation can bring about a whole new perspective.
Q: Is it normal for a person with D.I.D. to see their alters as they would see, like, their friends and family?
A: As in visually seeing them as you would any other person? Well, no that would probably not be as common. However, when you are dealing with things like trauma, and personalities forming due to trauma, it’s understandable that you would see fragments and pieces related to a traumatic event, especially appearing as alter personalities.
Q: What happens when you speak out about wanting help and you are told “Exercise will fix it” or are told No in a round about way?
A: When you are telling someone you need help or what you are going through and they respond in that fashion, it’s simply that they do not understand what you are going through. They say this because they cannot empathize with you and your struggles and wish that something as simple as exercise will fix the issue. So ultimately, it’s them, not you.
Q: What advice do you give to people who dislike how they look? How can you feel beautiful, even though you’re convinced you’re not (e.g. because many people tell you that you’re fat, ugly, stupid etc.)?
A: If how you view yourself is based on what other people say, then that is the problem. You’ve taught yourself to listen more to other people’s opinions than your own self love. By realizing that you are not these other people and you are not their words, and then reconnect with yourself and accept and love yourself, then things will start to improve and you will no longer accept other people’s negativity.
Q: Sometimes whenever I try to think positive, it literally hurts. Like, I feel this stab in my heart, or it’s like someone is obnoxiously going “Come oooonnn, show me that smile!!” What gives?
A: Well, it seems to me that you’ve been through a lot of negativity and that perhaps you don’t feel as though you deserve to be happy. As a result, you try to force your own happiness which ultimately leads to more sadness since you cannot bring it about. Ultimately, you have to work through that negativity in order to be in a more positive place where the positivity will come to you and happen, that you will allow it to happen, versus what is going on now.
Q: Do you have breast implants or are you at all interested in getting them?
A: I do not have breast implants and have no real interest in getting them. I’d prefer something like that not be in my body.
Q: Can a male to female transgender person produce semen? And if they can, can they ejaculate using their “changed” genitals.
A: When you begin taking hormones, ejaculation stops shortly thereafter. After surgery, any kind of ejaculation would be purely lubrication that your body may produce on its own. There will be no semen or male ejaculate.
Weird message time. The first is:
WM: Do you wear glasses? if not, I think you should go to the ophthalmologis.
A: What? What gives you that impression?
WM: This triggered my erection.
A: Mine too!
WM: Your eyebrows are not real.
A: You know…I get so tired of people saying my eyebrows aren’t real. I know that, ok? I know that. I wish they were, I really do.
WM: This girl has the craziest brows omg
WM: Holy eye liner.
WM: Your makeup… Mental illness?
WM: I quickly switched to porn because it was easier to explain
A: Easier than this? No. Not possible.
WM: What is that thing? Don’t tell me what it thinks it is. What is it?
A: Well, it is what’s called a behalf of a lowly distortion. What happens is this device can go around and around at such a speed that it distorts the realm of neutrality. This causes a shift in the brackanew of the hersartia. I hope that answered your question.
WM: you were pretty ugly guy, but now you are alright, id def let you blow me.
WM: I’d go behind your back just to tap that ass hole baby.
WM: I knew aliens exist… if they all look like you, then I hope I’m abducted soon into their spaceship and “forced” to have sex with them.
WM: That’s a guy. That’s a guy!
WM: ITS A MAN.
WM: r u dude?
WM: That’s not even a girl that’s a man, am I the only one who’s noticed this
WM: Bad news, you aren’t passing. Face, voice, hair, body, all dead giveaways to your perpetual dudeness.
WM: She doesn’t have DID..she is just stupid.
WM: She isn’t crazy just stupidn
WM: I think cheese burgers did this….. One time I had some…onion pickle too much twix bars …. The next thing I knew I was playing golf be care guys!!!!!!!
WM: I sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter. Ever since I was a boy I dreamed of soaring over the oilfields dropping hot sticky loads on disgusting foreigners. People say to me that a person being a helicopter is Impossible and I’m fucking retarded but I don’t care, I’m beautiful. I’m having a plastic surgeon install rotary blades, 30 mm cannons and AMG-114 Hellfire missiles on my body. From now on I want you guys to call me “Apache” and respect my right to kill from above and kill needlessly. If you can’t accept me you’re a heliphobe and need to check your vehicle privilege. Thank you for being so understanding.
So, that’s all for now. Thanks for watching!
My twelfth Q&A and weird message video. After I posted my previous Q&A video where I started taking all questions from an online form, I was quite impressed by the number of submissions I received! 118 questions I needed to sort through. I even closed the form two weeks before the end of June, 2015 as I began working on the video. It was awesome receiving so many questions, that I was unfortunately unable to answer all of them. Regardless, it was a pleasant surprise.
Also, the last weird message, the one about being an Attack Helicopter, is actually a meme. I didn’t know this at the time, but the only reason I discovered it is because I noticed curly single and double quotes. Usually something like this is automatically created in word processing applications, so it seemed a bit odd a comment had this. So, I search a small snippet and discovered it was a meme.
The only other special thing about this video is that, and it actually started on the video prior to this, but there was a nice new effect added to my video editing software that allowed me to better manager the color. In addition, I can darken the edges of the video to make the background less bright. I think it certainly looks quite a bit superior as the bright background is no more and is less distracting and difficult on the eyes. Plus, it draws more attention to the speaker, me!